Relative spirits

Well this is my first forum post and glad to see the subject of experiances.
My brother took his own life Jan13 1987 with a shot gun. He was 18 i was 21. I believe he did this because of my dads death from a stroke and was devastated and a sudden break up with his girlfriend that night and was highly depressed and drinking that evening.
My poor mom was down in the basement at the time he did it and we had a tarped off partition with a few ummm weed plants and couch for just hanging out.
Anyway my sister and I ( his twin ) were accross the city (Edmonton) at a buddies for the night.
I kept getting up and putting on my jacket and it was strange I didnt even realize what i was doing until everyone kept saying "what are you doing ,take off your coat and stay awhile" type of coments.
Then i got a phone call from my 1/2 sister saying there was a emergancy and wow it was like total flash and i wasnt there (at the party in that room)and seen exactly what he did like a very clear vision like i was the one laying on our hangout couch and putting the gun under my jaw.
i drove back home crying and thinking "this cant be true it didnt happen maybe someone got hurt" because no one told me anything except that vision which i was trying to deny as hard as i could. Then i seen the ambulance and cop cars without lights and i knew it was real.
Very sad moment and was numb of feeling for 2 years.
Later mom wanted to move really bad (2-3 mnths). She told me she would hear that shot go off once a week . I thought just a mind trick til one of her friends were over and said he heard it also.
My sister and i ended up getting a apartment together and she was working at a hotel where the bus didnt go so i would usally drive her to and from work.
One day my friend greg and i were at another friends place having a few drinks and hoots lol and it was lik 6pmish and she didn't get off til 9pm or so. i again felt a need to leave and go home ( a somewhat familiar feeling by now and more alert to it ) so we left after about 1/2 hour (I guess cause it wasnt a urgent feeling) .
When i got home the phone was ringing so i unlocked the door in a hurry and rushed to get the phone.
when i answered it was like "hello..silent HELLOOOO" and my sister was on the other end going "hello?" and i was kinda irritated lol and said "Beck what do you want ?? why did you call me ??" she replied "you called me" and i heard the woman at the front desk go "no he didnt it has to go through the switchboard and vice versa for her calling out" cause it was a house phone with no dialer.
Well anyway after our confusion and surprise all she needed was a ride home..she got off earlier than usual cause no customers in the cafe. lol

Ps I would like to not before my brothers suicide he was having OBO's and having spirits open doors where he and his girlfriend were babysitting.

Anyways thnx for reading and i was just glad to beable to share.
Forrest